This is a creative feminisation curse. Before you listen you need to choose an animation movie or series (manga or western) and a female character in it, and write it down on a piece of paper. Whenever you watch it, you will fall into a light trance, and be very focused on this character. You will deeply connect with her, feel with her, and begin to see her as your role model. And you will instinctively adopt her behaviors, dreams and desires, way to move and talk, and everything feminine about her, and make it a part of you.